Hmmm... What new have I tried...
There are so many things that I WANT to try... (see bucket list)
But what have I done lately that is new... That I have tried just for the heck of it..
OH OH OH!!
I Know!!
I have tried to just be more positive lately. I used to be so negative about every situation and everything sucked and meow meow meow. But then I decided that why? Why should everything suck. Why can't I make a negative situation into a better one. A more positive one. One that I would enjoy more.
And I am not gonna lie.. it is HARD. I think anyone would agree with me that trying not to let the bad things effect you is a difficult thing. But with a little practice... I will be a pro soon :)
-Jord
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Day 25:: Something I regret
Well you see.. I don't really have regrets.
I believe that everything happens for a reason. No matter what.
But if I had to say... I regret saying good bye.
Hard to say:: The Used
The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
My worries weighed the world how I used to be
And everything (I'm cold) seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone it's not the same
Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before
Worse than the fear it's the knife
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone I'm not the same
It's hard to say that I was wrong
(God, it's hard to say)
It's hard to say that I miss you
(God, it's hard to say)
Since you've been gone
I'm not the same
-Jordyn
I believe that everything happens for a reason. No matter what.
But if I had to say... I regret saying good bye.
Hard to say:: The Used
The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
My worries weighed the world how I used to be
And everything (I'm cold) seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone it's not the same
Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before
Worse than the fear it's the knife
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say I held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone I'm not the same
It's hard to say that I was wrong
(God, it's hard to say)
It's hard to say that I miss you
(God, it's hard to say)
Since you've been gone
I'm not the same
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
This is day 24:: What I ate today..
Well so far I have eaten a bean burrito
with some scrumptious fries
and a dr. pepper.
From taco amigo
Yum
-Jord
Monday, March 28, 2011
and with that...
I have more...
When you can sit and talk for hours about nothing and not get bored.
There is that silence but you feel comfortable in it cause being in their presence is just enough.
When you can sit there and pop all the gross things on each others backs and not think it is gross :)
He calls you beautiful and gorgeous instead of hot or sexy.
It's when he calls you back when you hang up on him in the middle of a fight.
Love is when he will stay awake just to see you sleep, and I promise that isn't creepy.
It's when he kisses your forehead or a slight peck on the cheek.
It's not having to constantly remind each other how much you love each other cause you just know.. Even though it is nice to hear it still.
It is calling someone your best friend.. AND your significant other.
It's being able to work through issues together and become stronger from it.
It's calling each other when the other one falls asleep cause you don't want him to go to bed yet cause you still want to keep talking to him.
It's being proud of her when she runs all the way to the park with out even stopping once. But only with your encouragement did she make it.
It is the soft saying that only you two can hear.
It is having so many inside jokes and everyone being confused as you pee your pants laughing.
It's spraying a teddy bear with our perfume/cologne and passing her back and forth.
It's about helping each other over come our trials.
It's hiding her from scary things as you hold her through the haunted Forrest.
It is hating the music she listens to but still letting her listen to it in the car because you know it will make her happy.
It is about putting the other before yourself and making sure they are okay before you are.
It's about letting go cause you know that's what is best for him...
-Jordynlynn
and remember how I said rejection was one of my biggest fears... well... REJECTED...
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”
When you can sit and talk for hours about nothing and not get bored.
There is that silence but you feel comfortable in it cause being in their presence is just enough.
When you can sit there and pop all the gross things on each others backs and not think it is gross :)
He calls you beautiful and gorgeous instead of hot or sexy.
It's when he calls you back when you hang up on him in the middle of a fight.
Love is when he will stay awake just to see you sleep, and I promise that isn't creepy.
It's when he kisses your forehead or a slight peck on the cheek.
It's not having to constantly remind each other how much you love each other cause you just know.. Even though it is nice to hear it still.
It is calling someone your best friend.. AND your significant other.
It's being able to work through issues together and become stronger from it.
It's calling each other when the other one falls asleep cause you don't want him to go to bed yet cause you still want to keep talking to him.
It's being proud of her when she runs all the way to the park with out even stopping once. But only with your encouragement did she make it.
It is the soft saying that only you two can hear.
It is having so many inside jokes and everyone being confused as you pee your pants laughing.
It's spraying a teddy bear with our perfume/cologne and passing her back and forth.
It's about helping each other over come our trials.
It's hiding her from scary things as you hold her through the haunted Forrest.
It is hating the music she listens to but still letting her listen to it in the car because you know it will make her happy.
It is about putting the other before yourself and making sure they are okay before you are.
It's about letting go cause you know that's what is best for him...
-Jordynlynn
and remember how I said rejection was one of my biggest fears... well... REJECTED...
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”
Day 23:: The definition of Love
love[luhv] Definition from the internet
–noun
1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3.sexual passion or desire.
4.a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
–verb (used with object)
5.to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
6.to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).
7.to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music
Definition from Jordyn::
Love... What a silly word...
Wanting to be with each other all the time.
Not caring what everyone else thinks.
Butterflies in your tummy every time he kisses you.
Not just every time he kisses you but every touch by him.
Knowing each others imperfections and still seeing each other perfectly.
Knowing every little detail about each other and yet are still fascinated by everything they tell you.
Wanting to dress up all pretty for him but being okay just being in your sweats as well.
Him thinking you're beautiful even with no make up on and your hair on top of your head.Definition from Jordyn::
Love... What a silly word...
Wanting to be with each other all the time.
Not caring what everyone else thinks.
Butterflies in your tummy every time he kisses you.
Not just every time he kisses you but every touch by him.
Knowing each others imperfections and still seeing each other perfectly.
Knowing every little detail about each other and yet are still fascinated by everything they tell you.
Wanting to dress up all pretty for him but being okay just being in your sweats as well.
Being able to laugh at each other but at the same time knowing how to be serious as well.
Saving cute little texts that are just super cheesy.
Being able to express your feelings and even if they don't fully comprehend they still sit there and comfort you and tell you that it is going to be okay and you aren't silly for feeling how you are feeling.
When they call you or text you, you get so excited to see their name and you get those butterflies that I was talking about before.
Really getting to know everything about them and loving every flaw and forgiving every mistake.
Being in a silly little fight and kissing and making up in five minutes.
Being there for each other no matter what... no questions asked.
And this ladies and gentlemen... Is what I believe love is.
<3/Jordynlynn
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Day 22:: Something that makes me upset
Well you see.. I can't sleep... So what do I do? Start blogging...
Well I have a lot of things that upset me... It is kinda bad.
Mostly I upset myself.
You know how people say that you are your own worst critic?
Well I think that that phrase is really drastic with this girl right here. I except nothing short of perfect from myself and this week has been rough. I have let myself down way too many times. And I put myself down way too much. I am a bully to myself. That isn't healthy.
I don't know how to handle it.. When I fail myself... My body just shuts down and I just cry. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how to change it and make things better. And I don't really feel like I have anyone to turn to. I try to just brush it off and tell myself it is all okay, but then just one more things adds on and makes it way too hard.
Excuse my rant... It has been a ROUGH week. Hopefully things will look up from here?
My goal: give myself atleast 2 compliments a day... We will start here...
-Jordyn
oh.. and when your boyfriend... well ex boyfriend thinks it is okay to take another girl that he has a slight crush on to prom. Yeah... Upest.
Well I have a lot of things that upset me... It is kinda bad.
Mostly I upset myself.
You know how people say that you are your own worst critic?
Well I think that that phrase is really drastic with this girl right here. I except nothing short of perfect from myself and this week has been rough. I have let myself down way too many times. And I put myself down way too much. I am a bully to myself. That isn't healthy.
I don't know how to handle it.. When I fail myself... My body just shuts down and I just cry. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how to change it and make things better. And I don't really feel like I have anyone to turn to. I try to just brush it off and tell myself it is all okay, but then just one more things adds on and makes it way too hard.
Excuse my rant... It has been a ROUGH week. Hopefully things will look up from here?
My goal: give myself atleast 2 compliments a day... We will start here...
-Jordyn
oh.. and when your boyfriend... well ex boyfriend thinks it is okay to take another girl that he has a slight crush on to prom. Yeah... Upest.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day 21:: My Beliefs.
So just a quick side note:: you know how I had that one At first post? Well I have one to add to that.
At first.... I thought I made a bad decision... But I have come to realize that I didn't.
So back to day 21....
This I Believe:
I believe that the sun will come out tomorrow. When I was little I would here these words and I would just think to myself, "Of course it will, what is the sun going to do, dissapear?" it wasn't until I was older that I discoverd a new, deeper meaning to this phrase.
Everyone has their bad days, when they feel like absolutely nothing is going right and the world is against them. At least I know I do. Everyone around you tells you to try and look at the bright side of things, but it is hard when you are feeling so low and all you want to do is cry. One particular day I found this the hardest. I was personally at an all time high. I was with my best friends doing something that I loved. As we were traveling home after winning first place in a marching band competition there was a tragic accident. The bus driver of one of our tour buses fell asleep and went off the side of the road. One of our amazing staff members, whom everyone absolutely adored, stood up grabbed the wheel and to try and direct the bus back on to the road, We were very fortunate that none of our band members, our friends, our family, were seriously injured, but in saving everyone else Heather was ejected from the bus and killed.
I lost someone very dear to me that night. It seemed as though my grief would never end. But slowly it did. Day by day, inch by inch my sun came back up and life just got brighter. Of course the memory of Heather will live in the hearts of the people that she touched forever and she will always be missed.
So whether it be the death of a loved one, or another not so traumatic greif in your own life, the sun will ALWAYS come out tomorrow. This I believe.
And I am going to take this beliefe and apply it to life right now!! I hope that sun rises real soon!
At first.... I thought I made a bad decision... But I have come to realize that I didn't.
So back to day 21....
This I Believe:
I believe that the sun will come out tomorrow. When I was little I would here these words and I would just think to myself, "Of course it will, what is the sun going to do, dissapear?" it wasn't until I was older that I discoverd a new, deeper meaning to this phrase.
Everyone has their bad days, when they feel like absolutely nothing is going right and the world is against them. At least I know I do. Everyone around you tells you to try and look at the bright side of things, but it is hard when you are feeling so low and all you want to do is cry. One particular day I found this the hardest. I was personally at an all time high. I was with my best friends doing something that I loved. As we were traveling home after winning first place in a marching band competition there was a tragic accident. The bus driver of one of our tour buses fell asleep and went off the side of the road. One of our amazing staff members, whom everyone absolutely adored, stood up grabbed the wheel and to try and direct the bus back on to the road, We were very fortunate that none of our band members, our friends, our family, were seriously injured, but in saving everyone else Heather was ejected from the bus and killed.
I lost someone very dear to me that night. It seemed as though my grief would never end. But slowly it did. Day by day, inch by inch my sun came back up and life just got brighter. Of course the memory of Heather will live in the hearts of the people that she touched forever and she will always be missed.
So whether it be the death of a loved one, or another not so traumatic greif in your own life, the sun will ALWAYS come out tomorrow. This I believe.
And I am going to take this beliefe and apply it to life right now!! I hope that sun rises real soon!
-Jordynlynn
Friday, March 25, 2011
Day swancig:: Things I love
I know that is not how you spell 20 in German but when I learned it... We learned it like a swan smoking a cig. Baha ohh funny.
Any who... The things that I love. I love lots of things :) here are a few!
I love the way that rain smells on a hot summer day
I love the way my friends can cheer me up no matter what.
I love my family.
I love dancing in the rain.
I love the way that he smells.
I love hugs. From anyone... Everyone really.
I love getting letters in the mail. They make me feel important.
I love when I don't have to stay at work when I feel like death... that would not be right now:(
I love my iPod and every song on it.
I love swinging on swings.
I love warm summer days.
I love stars and looking at them for hours.
I love when people call or text me just to see how I am.
I love spinning. and everyone that I spin with.
I love the little kids that I babysit.
I love his giggle.
I love her love of life.
I love that he is really intelligent
I love going to the movies.
I love dressing up like a girl and also wearing my sweats.
I love eating home baked goods.
I love sunshine.
I love Thursday nights with the crady's.
I love performing.
I love smoothie king.
I love to learn new things.
I love watching the sunset.
I love teaching my girls
I love watching them grow and improve with what they are doing.
I love the miller family and all that they have done for me.. Mostly Tiffany.
I love Zupa's:: Ultimate no tomato and chicken enchilada chili.
I love long car drives to Reno and back.
I love my bed.
I love blogging
I love big poofy dresses
I love beautiful pictures
I love dancing.
I love getting paid... Yes today is pay day :)
I love all of you that read my blog and make me feel important :)
There is so much more I love but I don't want to take up all of your day!
-Jordyn
Any who... The things that I love. I love lots of things :) here are a few!
I love the way that rain smells on a hot summer day
I love the way my friends can cheer me up no matter what.
I love my family.
I love dancing in the rain.
I love the way that he smells.
I love hugs. From anyone... Everyone really.
I love getting letters in the mail. They make me feel important.
I love when I don't have to stay at work when I feel like death... that would not be right now:(
I love my iPod and every song on it.
I love swinging on swings.
I love warm summer days.
I love stars and looking at them for hours.
I love when people call or text me just to see how I am.
I love spinning. and everyone that I spin with.
I love the little kids that I babysit.
I love his giggle.
I love her love of life.
I love that he is really intelligent
I love going to the movies.
I love dressing up like a girl and also wearing my sweats.
I love eating home baked goods.
I love sunshine.
I love Thursday nights with the crady's.
I love performing.
I love smoothie king.
I love to learn new things.
I love watching the sunset.
I love teaching my girls
I love watching them grow and improve with what they are doing.
I love the miller family and all that they have done for me.. Mostly Tiffany.
I love Zupa's:: Ultimate no tomato and chicken enchilada chili.
I love long car drives to Reno and back.
I love my bed.
I love blogging
I love big poofy dresses
I love beautiful pictures
I love dancing.
I love getting paid... Yes today is pay day :)
I love all of you that read my blog and make me feel important :)
There is so much more I love but I don't want to take up all of your day!
-Jordyn
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Day 19:: The bucket list:)
Well you see I have a bucket list with my best friend Addie, But I also have one of my own... There is so much I want to do. I hope that I can fit it all in or remember it all!
1. Write my name in the sand on a beach
2. Pee in the ocean.. Yes... That is what I said.
3.Climb Mount Timp. And see the sunrise
4. Go to Disneyland
5. Travel the world
6. Ride in a hot air balloon.
7. See the 7 wonders.
8. Stand in four places at once.
9. Go on a road trip with my best friends
10. Skydive
11. Ride the fastest roller coaster on the earth
12. Donate a large amount of money to a charity
13. Own and Audi TT
14. Change someones life for the better
15. Receive no more tickets (ex parking, speeding, accidents)
16. Meet Justin Bieber. Possibly have him kiss me :)
17. Learn a new language
18. Take time to learn about a new person I meet.
19. Buy some sort of fast food and give it to a homeless person on the street.
20. Wear the biggest and poofiest dress I can find to some sort of event.
21. Become a princess.
22. Make the floor plan for my future home so it is just how I want it.
23. Run in a charity race.
24. Run in a marathon and finish top 15
25. Learn to snowboard
26. Learn to wake board
27. Learn to surf
28. Set foot on each one of the seven continents
29. Travel to all of the 50 states.
30. Go on a humanitarian trip to a 3rd world country and help
31. Visit all the great zoos.
32. Swim with a dolphin
33. Go scuba diving.
34. Ride in a submarine
35.Learn to play my guitar and be amazing at it :)
36. Write a song
37. Climb and active volcano
38. Have 3 children
39. Be a crazy old lady that races my wheelchair in a retirement home.
40. Camp out in a jungle
41.Attend the festival of colors.
42. Go to the north pole and visit Santa
43. Visit a concentration camp
44. Learn to long board
45. Go to college and get a degree
46. Get married and have my marriage last.
47. Scream at the top of my lungs.
48. Be apart of a protest that I believe in.
49. Donate blood.
50. Make a music video
51. Learn to brush off the bad things a live each day to the fullest.
I will get started on these 51 things and keep adding more to it :)
-Jordyn
1. Write my name in the sand on a beach
2. Pee in the ocean.. Yes... That is what I said.
3.Climb Mount Timp. And see the sunrise
4. Go to Disneyland
5. Travel the world
6. Ride in a hot air balloon.
7. See the 7 wonders.
8. Stand in four places at once.
9. Go on a road trip with my best friends
10. Skydive
11. Ride the fastest roller coaster on the earth
12. Donate a large amount of money to a charity
13. Own and Audi TT
14. Change someones life for the better
15. Receive no more tickets (ex parking, speeding, accidents)
16. Meet Justin Bieber. Possibly have him kiss me :)
17. Learn a new language
18. Take time to learn about a new person I meet.
19. Buy some sort of fast food and give it to a homeless person on the street.
20. Wear the biggest and poofiest dress I can find to some sort of event.
21. Become a princess.
22. Make the floor plan for my future home so it is just how I want it.
23. Run in a charity race.
24. Run in a marathon and finish top 15
25. Learn to snowboard
26. Learn to wake board
27. Learn to surf
28. Set foot on each one of the seven continents
29. Travel to all of the 50 states.
30. Go on a humanitarian trip to a 3rd world country and help
31. Visit all the great zoos.
32. Swim with a dolphin
33. Go scuba diving.
34. Ride in a submarine
35.Learn to play my guitar and be amazing at it :)
36. Write a song
37. Climb and active volcano
38. Have 3 children
39. Be a crazy old lady that races my wheelchair in a retirement home.
40. Camp out in a jungle
41.Attend the festival of colors.
42. Go to the north pole and visit Santa
43. Visit a concentration camp
44. Learn to long board
45. Go to college and get a degree
46. Get married and have my marriage last.
47. Scream at the top of my lungs.
48. Be apart of a protest that I believe in.
49. Donate blood.
50. Make a music video
51. Learn to brush off the bad things a live each day to the fullest.
I will get started on these 51 things and keep adding more to it :)
-Jordyn
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
day 18:: At First...
At first...
We were just friends. Not only friends... But BEST friends. He was a silly kid. Everyone thought so.
At first.. we dated... And we didn't work out.
At first... we decided we were better at just being each others best friends.
At first... I thought that was going to be the end of our romantic lives.
But.. at first... I was wrong
We ended up getting back together and I fell in love. He was great. We were together for 7 months. But then something happened. I don't really know how to explain it. It's not like I lost feelings for him. I do still love him but I needed time to find out things for myself. And I think he understood. He may not like it... But he understood. And he needs to learn to make decisions for himself and grow up a little before we decide to be way too serious. Well.... That is life today...
At first... I thought I was perfectly fine with my decision... but now... I am hurting more then I thought I would.
-Jordyn
We were just friends. Not only friends... But BEST friends. He was a silly kid. Everyone thought so.
At first.. we dated... And we didn't work out.
At first... we decided we were better at just being each others best friends.
At first... I thought that was going to be the end of our romantic lives.
But.. at first... I was wrong
We ended up getting back together and I fell in love. He was great. We were together for 7 months. But then something happened. I don't really know how to explain it. It's not like I lost feelings for him. I do still love him but I needed time to find out things for myself. And I think he understood. He may not like it... But he understood. And he needs to learn to make decisions for himself and grow up a little before we decide to be way too serious. Well.... That is life today...
At first... I thought I was perfectly fine with my decision... but now... I am hurting more then I thought I would.
-Jordyn
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Number 17:: This week.
I will say my schedule for this upcoming week :) so you can all be creepers and stalk me!
Monday
I had the day off! Woot!
I went to A Guard at 6 am. Not fun..
I then went home and napped :)
After waking up from my glorious nap and getting ready, I went and got my hair did.
After that I went and talked to mr. christian dean shupe... Now I am single...
I then took Nicki to the lovely Olive Garden for her birthday
I went home and enjoyed a nice relaxing evening
Tuesday
Wake up really early :(
Go to work for the first time in almost a week
Stay at work all day.
Go to B Guard straight from work
Have Wasatch Academy right after B Guard
Then go home and pass out from exhaustion.
Wednesday
Wake up really early:(
Go to work
Have an hour after work to relax
Go to Wasatch Independent until 10
Go to McDonald's after guard
Off to home to sleep!
Thursday
Wake up really early :(
Go to work
Play with Addie!! YAY!
Go to Thursday night Chili's with the Crady's
Off to my bed!
Friday
Finally! Wake up real early:(
Go to work... But it is okay... wanna know why? It is pay day!!!
Go home
Play with Jahde! I have missed him!
Go home and sleep.
Saturday
Wake up early
Go to guard
Teach Wasatch Academy
Go home to get ready
Be back to the School and get on a bus to head to Davis High School
Watch my girl perform
Sit around all day
Perform myself
Find out awards
Head home to sleep
Sunday
Being lazy
Dinner with the Fam
Sleeping
And this kids... Is how the week is going to go down. :)
-Jordynlynn
Monday
I had the day off! Woot!
I went to A Guard at 6 am. Not fun..
I then went home and napped :)
After waking up from my glorious nap and getting ready, I went and got my hair did.
After that I went and talked to mr. christian dean shupe... Now I am single...
I then took Nicki to the lovely Olive Garden for her birthday
I went home and enjoyed a nice relaxing evening
Tuesday
Wake up really early :(
Go to work for the first time in almost a week
Stay at work all day.
Go to B Guard straight from work
Have Wasatch Academy right after B Guard
Then go home and pass out from exhaustion.
Wednesday
Wake up really early:(
Go to work
Have an hour after work to relax
Go to Wasatch Independent until 10
Go to McDonald's after guard
Off to home to sleep!
Thursday
Wake up really early :(
Go to work
Play with Addie!! YAY!
Go to Thursday night Chili's with the Crady's
Off to my bed!
Friday
Finally! Wake up real early:(
Go to work... But it is okay... wanna know why? It is pay day!!!
Go home
Play with Jahde! I have missed him!
Go home and sleep.
Saturday
Wake up early
Go to guard
Teach Wasatch Academy
Go home to get ready
Be back to the School and get on a bus to head to Davis High School
Watch my girl perform
Sit around all day
Perform myself
Find out awards
Head home to sleep
Sunday
Being lazy
Dinner with the Fam
Sleeping
And this kids... Is how the week is going to go down. :)
-Jordynlynn
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Day 16:: Something that makes me feel better.
Well you see, there are a few things that make me feel better.
Blogging.. I know I am an idiot. But something about just writing makes me feel lots better
Writing in my journal.. It kinda goes along with blogging. Just more personal.
Coffee Heath Bar Crunch Ice Cream... Ben and Jerry's. Can't go wrong there
Hugs.... From anyone. Anytime. They make everyone better
Quotes... Like I have said before, I love them. There is a quote for every mood.
My friends... They are crazy. Make me laugh. No matter what.
Family... Well on occasion.
Colorguard.. A place to escape and do something that I am good at.
Blogging.. I know I am an idiot. But something about just writing makes me feel lots better
Writing in my journal.. It kinda goes along with blogging. Just more personal.
Coffee Heath Bar Crunch Ice Cream... Ben and Jerry's. Can't go wrong there
Hugs.... From anyone. Anytime. They make everyone better
Quotes... Like I have said before, I love them. There is a quote for every mood.
My friends... They are crazy. Make me laugh. No matter what.
Family... Well on occasion.
Colorguard.. A place to escape and do something that I am good at.
That all.
-Jordyn
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Numero 15:: My fears:/
Well where to begin...
Spiders... They are the worst. I remember one time Mr. Dakota Taylor showed me a picture... Yes.. Just a picture of his tarantula and I cried..Gross scary things they are.
Being a cat lady for the rest of my life/Being alone forever:: Who would want that?
The dentist. I just embarked on my first journey of getting a root canal. It was not a pleasant journey either. I cry when I have to go to that awful place. Yes actually I am 5 years old. Even the smell makes me want to vomit.
Rejection:: well... Pretty self explanatory right?
The dark is pretty scary too. You never know what is around the corner and in the closet or under your bed :s
Clowns:: Oh heavens.. Those things are not meant to bring joy. Whoever thought of that was deranged.
Even though I am scared of A LOT of things... I am a brave person.. I promise:)
Spiders... They are the worst. I remember one time Mr. Dakota Taylor showed me a picture... Yes.. Just a picture of his tarantula and I cried..Gross scary things they are.
Being a cat lady for the rest of my life/Being alone forever:: Who would want that?
The dentist. I just embarked on my first journey of getting a root canal. It was not a pleasant journey either. I cry when I have to go to that awful place. Yes actually I am 5 years old. Even the smell makes me want to vomit.
Rejection:: well... Pretty self explanatory right?
The dark is pretty scary too. You never know what is around the corner and in the closet or under your bed :s
Clowns:: Oh heavens.. Those things are not meant to bring joy. Whoever thought of that was deranged.
Even though I am scared of A LOT of things... I am a brave person.. I promise:)
Monday, March 14, 2011
Day Fourteen:: My favorite song
So someone ask me... Go ahead... Do I have a favorite song? Yeah the answer would be No. I have wayyyy too many favorites.. Here are just some of the few... I put them in a smaller font so this post wasn't a mile long :)
With meIt is what it is..
Skinny Love
Bon Iver
Because he is just super chill
For Good
From Wicked
Because it is just an amazing song...
Anything Adele
Because she is just simple amazing!
9 Crimes&The Blowers Daughter
Damien Rice
I have just been into chill music lately
Anything Mayday Parade
They are my favorite. Always will be
But mostly Three Cheers For Five Years(acoustic) &Miserable At Best
Justin Bieber
He puts a smile on anyones face
Get over it :)
Self-Conclusion
Spill Canvas
It was a good song through a hard time.
For The First Time
The Script
He has a hot man voice
Children Of Divorce
Johnny Craig
Also hot man voice
Like A G6
Far East MovementBecause it is a fun dance around song.
Oh and the fart song
Because it made us have a good show :)
THE END!
Well obviously that is not all.. But for now... :)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Day 13:: My day
Well I am actually writing the post about yesterday.
Yesterday would have been March 12, 2011
It was the most fabulous of days minus the fact that I didn't really feel well all day. But this is how it went.
It was a show day... Not any show day... Home show!
Wake up at 6:20 yes in the AM... horrible I know! Realized I was late..oops. Run to dearest Tiffany's home to pick up the keys so we could practice this thing called color guard all the morning long.
No... I am not exaggerating... 7-11 is when I practice. Then run down to the band room to teach my cute little girls! This happens until 11:30.
I then ran home to get ready.. but that wasn't about to happen.. I actually took a nap cause my body is reaching total exhaustion and is slowly shutting down.
Well I then woke up late from my nap. I jumped up started getting ready.. Threw all my stuff that I would be needing for the rest of the night in a bag. By this point I felt like vomiting.
Don't fret.. I was on time. I was at the school by 2:30. I couldn't talk very well because it hurt to. And having no voice mixed with a bunch of little girls is no good! Good thing Nicki was there with her loud mouth huh :) And then Adrienne came so it was all good! We went to our warm ups then it was show time! They did AMAZING I could not have been prouder of them!
After they performed I went and laid down and drank my orange juice just hoping that I would make it through the night! Well then I went in to watch some shows and people were really loud so I tried to get out of there real fast (key word being tried) Turns out I couldn't until this guard who hadn't even set up yet was done performing... Worst 10 minutes of my life.
I finally got out of there, running into my dear friends Clarissa, Rachael, & Kenzie. and Rachael told me that she read my blog which made me so happy! (Hi Rachael!)
I then proceeded to go and get ready... ya know... crazy make up.. trying to look like Dorthy. I took some IB profin and slowly started to feel better. We then went to stretch and warm up.. This is where the day got better! We stretched to one of my favoritest songs and then did across the floors to Justin Bieber! Oh best thing ever. and did energy ball to the fart song. So happy!
We went to watch the American Fork Open Guards show entitled Welcome To The Circus. They did so great! I am jealous of their show!
We then proceeded to warm up. Then performance time came. It was amazing!! I have never had a better show! It didn't matter what place we came in because we know that we did good and that was all that mattered at the time! And after I performed I found out that Addie was there! It made me so happy!!
Awards time... Wasatch Academy 1st place, American Fork "B" Guard 1st place, American fork "A" Guard 2nd place, American Fork Open Guard 1st place.... Fingers crossed our division was next... 2nd place goes to... Urban Expressions... We all knew what this meant! I started freaking out then 1st place goes to Wasatch Independent! I stood up started freaking out! We had done it!! I was so proud of all of us.
Needless to say... It was a good day.
I love these girls!
Yesterday would have been March 12, 2011
It was the most fabulous of days minus the fact that I didn't really feel well all day. But this is how it went.
It was a show day... Not any show day... Home show!
Wake up at 6:20 yes in the AM... horrible I know! Realized I was late..oops. Run to dearest Tiffany's home to pick up the keys so we could practice this thing called color guard all the morning long.
No... I am not exaggerating... 7-11 is when I practice. Then run down to the band room to teach my cute little girls! This happens until 11:30.
I then ran home to get ready.. but that wasn't about to happen.. I actually took a nap cause my body is reaching total exhaustion and is slowly shutting down.
Well I then woke up late from my nap. I jumped up started getting ready.. Threw all my stuff that I would be needing for the rest of the night in a bag. By this point I felt like vomiting.
Don't fret.. I was on time. I was at the school by 2:30. I couldn't talk very well because it hurt to. And having no voice mixed with a bunch of little girls is no good! Good thing Nicki was there with her loud mouth huh :) And then Adrienne came so it was all good! We went to our warm ups then it was show time! They did AMAZING I could not have been prouder of them!
After they performed I went and laid down and drank my orange juice just hoping that I would make it through the night! Well then I went in to watch some shows and people were really loud so I tried to get out of there real fast (key word being tried) Turns out I couldn't until this guard who hadn't even set up yet was done performing... Worst 10 minutes of my life.
I finally got out of there, running into my dear friends Clarissa, Rachael, & Kenzie. and Rachael told me that she read my blog which made me so happy! (Hi Rachael!)
I then proceeded to go and get ready... ya know... crazy make up.. trying to look like Dorthy. I took some IB profin and slowly started to feel better. We then went to stretch and warm up.. This is where the day got better! We stretched to one of my favoritest songs and then did across the floors to Justin Bieber! Oh best thing ever. and did energy ball to the fart song. So happy!
We went to watch the American Fork Open Guards show entitled Welcome To The Circus. They did so great! I am jealous of their show!
We then proceeded to warm up. Then performance time came. It was amazing!! I have never had a better show! It didn't matter what place we came in because we know that we did good and that was all that mattered at the time! And after I performed I found out that Addie was there! It made me so happy!!
Awards time... Wasatch Academy 1st place, American Fork "B" Guard 1st place, American fork "A" Guard 2nd place, American Fork Open Guard 1st place.... Fingers crossed our division was next... 2nd place goes to... Urban Expressions... We all knew what this meant! I started freaking out then 1st place goes to Wasatch Independent! I stood up started freaking out! We had done it!! I was so proud of all of us.
Needless to say... It was a good day.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Day 12:: Something I miss
Green grass
Warm sun
Being a little bit tan
Shorts
Flip Flops
Swim Suits
Swimming
Tank tops
Laying out on a blanket
Being able to look at the stars without freezing
Fireworks
Swinging on swings
Vacations
Being with friends all day
Sleepovers whenever
Bright flowers
Ice cream cones
Lagoon
Running through spirinklers
Needless to say... I Need summer to be here... Now would be good :)
Warm sun
Being a little bit tan
Shorts
Flip Flops
Swim Suits
Swimming
Tank tops
Laying out on a blanket
Being able to look at the stars without freezing
Fireworks
Swinging on swings
Vacations
Being with friends all day
Sleepovers whenever
Bright flowers
Ice cream cones
Lagoon
Running through spirinklers
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Day 11:: favvvvvoorrritteee memory..
It goes a little something like this...
I always dreamed of going to New York City.
Seeing it in pictures and movies and actually being there are 2 completely different things. Just sayin.
The atmosphere there is just so amazing. Everyone is so busy and always just going and it was the most fascinating thing of my life.
Our hotel was on times square... Ideal? I do believe so!
Got to go through central park.. Beautiful!!
Got to see the statue of liberty... a lot different then expected.
Visited Ellis island... Learned so much!
Although that was amazing
I got to march in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. Now who can say that they have done that?!
Oh... pick me :)
Can't wait to go back!!
I always dreamed of going to New York City.
Seeing it in pictures and movies and actually being there are 2 completely different things. Just sayin.
The atmosphere there is just so amazing. Everyone is so busy and always just going and it was the most fascinating thing of my life.
Our hotel was on times square... Ideal? I do believe so!
Got to go through central park.. Beautiful!!
Got to see the statue of liberty... a lot different then expected.
Visited Ellis island... Learned so much!
Shopping.. Basically bomb
Top of the rock..Probably the most amazing place in the country! well from what I have seen.
Only down fall... Thanksgiving dinner..
I got to march in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. Now who can say that they have done that?!
Oh... pick me :)
Can't wait to go back!!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Day 10:: The best friends
I feel bad for all of you out there that do not know the 3 following people... Be jealous they are my best friends
Addie Alee Wimmer
Bestie since June 2010
Brought into this world June 8,1993
The spaz
The one allergic to everything
Lover of packpacks
Attends Merit academy- yeah..far far away.
Asthmatic
Lover of the Beatles
Loves her nephews probably more then anyone else in the world
Extremely ADD...making life...FUN
She would do anything for anyone
Has a psycho step dad.. scary man
Favorite drink being sprite
Lover of star gazing
Beautiful writer
Lover of unicorns... IT'S SO FLUFFY
Basically... Just purely and surely amazing!
Nickelett Sage Hutchinson
Bestie since August 2008
Lover of family
Lives with her daddy
Loves her nieces and nephews
Through thick and thin.. Still here :)
Lover of shoes
Reads more then any person I know
Lover of all music
Amazing photographer
Sister is pro cake maker
Has a real confusing family
Birthday on St. Patricks Day
Favorite color Green.. but it has to be a certain green
Sweet tooth
Amazingly beautiful dance... jealous!
Real loud
I love this girl.. She just doesn't realize how amazing she is sometimes.
Christian Dean Shupe
Bestie since September 2008
Brought into this world June 11, 1993
Lover of music
Amazing drummer
Member of the United States Marine Corps
Wants to be a graphic designer
Was a member of the AFDL
Loves art... really talented in that department
Does not drink carbonation
Favorite drink being powerade
Favorite animal being pandas
Acts like a little kid
Meaning he plays with things like Lego's
Loves the red Symphony bars
Favorite color being turquoise well any bright colors
Amazing boy.. He just needs to realize it :)
Addie Alee Wimmer
Bestie since June 2010
Brought into this world June 8,1993
The spaz
The one allergic to everything
Lover of packpacks
Attends Merit academy- yeah..far far away.
Asthmatic
Lover of the Beatles
Loves her nephews probably more then anyone else in the world
Extremely ADD...making life...FUN
She would do anything for anyone
Has a psycho step dad.. scary man
Favorite drink being sprite
Lover of star gazing
Beautiful writer
Lover of unicorns... IT'S SO FLUFFY
Basically... Just purely and surely amazing!
Nickelett Sage Hutchinson
Bestie since August 2008
Lover of family
Lives with her daddy
Loves her nieces and nephews
Through thick and thin.. Still here :)
Lover of shoes
Reads more then any person I know
Lover of all music
Amazing photographer
Sister is pro cake maker
Has a real confusing family
Birthday on St. Patricks Day
Favorite color Green.. but it has to be a certain green
Sweet tooth
Amazingly beautiful dance... jealous!
Real loud
I love this girl.. She just doesn't realize how amazing she is sometimes.
Christian Dean Shupe
Bestie since September 2008
Brought into this world June 11, 1993
Lover of music
Amazing drummer
Member of the United States Marine Corps
Wants to be a graphic designer
Was a member of the AFDL
Loves art... really talented in that department
Does not drink carbonation
Favorite drink being powerade
Favorite animal being pandas
Acts like a little kid
Meaning he plays with things like Lego's
Loves the red Symphony bars
Favorite color being turquoise well any bright colors
Amazing boy.. He just needs to realize it :)
Monday, March 7, 2011
Day9:: A Moment..
Well you see. I am a girl. I always dream of having those movie scene moments. You all know what I am talking about.. The leg popping kiss, The boy that got away but somehow they find their way back to eachother, all the sappy kisses, the running across a field towards eachother... You all know how it goes. Well once upon a time.. I had my movie scene moment.
It went like this, we were just friends. But we knew we wanted to be more. We were sitting at our park. It started with some news..not very good news.
We sat there. Both really upset. I tried to talk to him and work things out.
He just ignored me.
Well me being who I am, didn't want to be ignored. I got up from the picnic table we were sitting at, walked to his car grabbed my bag, and decided I was going to walk home.
I don't know what went through his mind... but I was almost to the edge of the park when I felt someone grab my arm.
He wipped me around and through his arms around me. We sat there for a moment... in that perfect silence.
I cried into his chest. He lifted my chin to talk look into my eyes. He told me that everything was going to be okay. That he still loved me, even though I had messed up.
Well now that I have had my movie scene moment.. I can be content :)
It went like this, we were just friends. But we knew we wanted to be more. We were sitting at our park. It started with some news..not very good news.
We sat there. Both really upset. I tried to talk to him and work things out.
He just ignored me.
Well me being who I am, didn't want to be ignored. I got up from the picnic table we were sitting at, walked to his car grabbed my bag, and decided I was going to walk home.
I don't know what went through his mind... but I was almost to the edge of the park when I felt someone grab my arm.
He wipped me around and through his arms around me. We sat there for a moment... in that perfect silence.
I cried into his chest. He lifted my chin to talk look into my eyes. He told me that everything was going to be okay. That he still loved me, even though I had messed up.
Well now that I have had my movie scene moment.. I can be content :)
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Day 8:: The parents
My parents are great. Sure we get in our fights... but I am a teenager who doesn't fight with their parents.
Gary Dale Parke
the father
taught me so much
very humble
got in a really bad accident
has a fake leg from it
makes orthodics for a living. ironic
just got over being really sickpro hunter
lover of camping
lover of the out doors
loves his kids unconditionally
loves documentaries or anything boring on TV.
wears camo everyday.
just purly amazing
glad he is apart of our family
Dana Ann Parke
the mother
lover of out doors
lover of camping
lover of excersing
state worker
loves her job more now
will do anything for her children
is really embarrassing alot of times
likes to think she is a teenager sometimes
she is silly
if she was younger or I was older.. we'd be twins
has had many trials in her life but has come out strong
basically the best momma ever.Needless to say... I love them more then anyone on this planet. I am so glad that they have given me a place that I can call home. I will be forever grateful for everything they have done for me. I wish sometimes I was just a little better at showing it sometimes
oh... there is another one. Kent... we don't talk about him.
-Jord
Day seven:: Something that makes me cry
Lets face it... I am a bawl baby. I cry over the silliest things I am not gonna lie. Whether they be happy tears or sad tears. I cry.
Chick flicks... Always cry
Dwelling on things... Always cry
But mostly...
Music from my Ipod.... Every song has a memory that I cherish. Whether the memory be happy or sad.. they usually make me tear up. I know I know.. kinda pathetic.
But that is what makes me cry. well one of the many.
-Jordyn
Chick flicks... Always cry
Dwelling on things... Always cry
But mostly...
Music from my Ipod.... Every song has a memory that I cherish. Whether the memory be happy or sad.. they usually make me tear up. I know I know.. kinda pathetic.
-Jordyn
Friday, March 4, 2011
Day sixxx:: Best birthday!
Well you see it went like this::
I was turning the big 16. Yeah the birthday that every human wants perfect? Yeah not me.
I was just content with chillin with a few friends after practice. Yes you heard me right I had to go to colorguard on my birthday. But it was okay! Because you see it was thursday night and those practices were the bomb.com.
Anywho! After practice little did I know.. a party was brewing! All for yours truly!:)
I always wanted a suprise birthday party! Whelp I got one!! All my really close friends were there. There was a cake fight, a comedian, pool table, and lots more!
It was a fabulous day and one that I will never ever forget. Thank you very much!!
-Jordyn
I was turning the big 16. Yeah the birthday that every human wants perfect? Yeah not me.
I was just content with chillin with a few friends after practice. Yes you heard me right I had to go to colorguard on my birthday. But it was okay! Because you see it was thursday night and those practices were the bomb.com.
Anywho! After practice little did I know.. a party was brewing! All for yours truly!:)
I always wanted a suprise birthday party! Whelp I got one!! All my really close friends were there. There was a cake fight, a comedian, pool table, and lots more!
It was a fabulous day and one that I will never ever forget. Thank you very much!!
-Jordyn
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Day:: 5//
THE BAG::
Well you see... My bag might as well be a black hole. There is so much trash and junk in there I don't even know where to begin!
Some wrappers::I really need to clean my bag :/
Cup of noodle:: For lunch!
Fork::Also for lunch!
Wallet
Chapstick:: Mostourizer
Chapstick::cough syrup smelly kind
Chapstick::glittery kind
Lip glossy gloss
Weapon gloves
Hair ribbons
Camera Charger
Bag of Ruffles chips :)
Word search book
Ipod
IB profin
Allergy pills
List of thoughts
SOOO basically like everything... like I said..
BLACK HOLE!
-Jordyn
Well you see... My bag might as well be a black hole. There is so much trash and junk in there I don't even know where to begin!
Some wrappers::I really need to clean my bag :/
Cup of noodle:: For lunch!
Fork::Also for lunch!
Wallet
Chapstick:: Mostourizer
Chapstick::cough syrup smelly kind
Chapstick::glittery kind
Lip glossy gloss
Weapon gloves
Hair ribbons
Camera Charger
Bag of Ruffles chips :)
Word search book
Ipod
IB profin
Allergy pills
List of thoughts
SOOO basically like everything... like I said..
BLACK HOLE!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Day quatro:: The siblings
Erin Shianne Rowland::
the youngest::the baby::the annoying. only kidding... sometimes.
she is 17 years old. She is the rebel of the family.
we fight a lot. but we also know how to get along as well.
she doesn't really know what she wants in life.
we still love her.
Kenneth Wade Rowland::
the oldest::theonlyboy:: the wisest.... only kidding.
i love this boy.
he is 23 years of age.
he is the most non judgmental, loving, accepting person i know.
went through rough patch. Lets be honest, who doesn't?
he is real easy to talk to.
some days... I look up to him.
Josh Parke::
The step brother.
Honestly... that's all i know:/
There is my siblings in a nut shell. They are great. Wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.
-Jordyn
the youngest::the baby::the annoying. only kidding... sometimes.
she is 17 years old. She is the rebel of the family.
we fight a lot. but we also know how to get along as well.
she doesn't really know what she wants in life.
we still love her.
Kenneth Wade Rowland::
the oldest::theonlyboy:: the wisest.... only kidding.
i love this boy.
he is 23 years of age.
he is the most non judgmental, loving, accepting person i know.
went through rough patch. Lets be honest, who doesn't?
he is real easy to talk to.
some days... I look up to him.
Josh Parke::
The step brother.
Honestly... that's all i know:/
There is my siblings in a nut shell. They are great. Wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.
-Jordyn
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Day 3:: The outfit.
It is what it is son!:://
gray camisole
white florly see through long sleeve shirt?
gray long cardi
blue jeans
white stitching
one pink and black sock, one red and black
black converse
Hair: Not done.. Didn't feel like doing it today..oops
Blue long beady necklace that I got from the boy.
braclets as always:: Duck silly band:: umbrella silly band:: rainbow::red and orange::duct tape::mime::
Rings::thumb::love life, be brave
contacts in my eyes.
That's all :)
-yordin
gray camisole
white florly see through long sleeve shirt?
gray long cardi
blue jeans
white stitching
one pink and black sock, one red and black
black converse
Hair: Not done.. Didn't feel like doing it today..
Blue long beady necklace that I got from the boy.
braclets as always:: Duck silly band:: umbrella silly band:: rainbow::red and orange::duct tape::mime::
Rings::thumb::love life, be brave
contacts in my eyes.
That's all :)
-yordin
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