No words can explain.

how I am feeling right now. I can't even explain the hurt I am feeling right now... and to be quite honest... Yeah call me dramatic or whatever you may... But I don't think that it is ever going to fully go away. I was in love... But some people... They feel like they need to but their heads into everyone else's business. I was happy... He was the one I wanted to be with. And to all of you that read this. Yeah go make fun of me and how dramatic our relationship was... Tell us that we aren't good for each other and we don't have a good relationship... But I hope you know that you are one of the main things that tore our relationship apart. I am so very infuriated with you... But I am going to be the bigger person about this....

I love how people are your so called friends but apparently they just can't stand to see you happy cause they plant a seed.... And that seed grows and then they end up destroying something that was so fantastic. I admit to everyone and I have before that we aren't a perfect couple. Yes as a matter of a fact we do fight... But do you know what I have to say to people in relationships that don't have arguments or disagreements.... Good luck. Cause that means that you aren't being 100 percent with your partner and they aren't being the same with you.

Yeah our relationship wasn't the best... But it was real.. I feel bad for all of you that have your fake "oh we are so happy we never fight" relationships. I really do feel for you... And as much as I hate the end of all this...I really do. I would give anything to just be back in his arms and him wiping my tears away and as much pain as I am in... I feel worse for you... I honestly do...

I lost my best friend today... I hurt worse then I have ever hurt before.... But I want him to know that if he ever reads this.... You sir are the best thing that has ever happened to me... You are so amazing in so many different ways... I knew you and you knew me better then any other person on this planet.... I really wish that this wasn't the end .... There are so many more things that I want to do and experience with you... I had such high hopes for us... And I hate the feeling that I failed you... I failed this relationship... I HATE being a failure... No other single person has caused me more pain and grief and sadness and frustration and all of that then you have... But at the same time... I have never been happier or more alive then I was with you... As I have said before.. I would take all of the bad things...I wouldn't trade them in for anything... I want to be with you so bad... I just wish it could be as simple as just wanting it...I really hope you find true happiness out there... I wish you all the best... You were my everything... I will always love you...

And to all of you that are going to go gossip about this and laugh and make fun... Go right ahead!! cause you talking behind my back just means that I am two steps ahead...

and I got the point that I should leave you alone... but we both know that I am not that strong...

always, Jordyn