Looking through a new light::

Okay girls... Who can honestly listen to any Taylor Swift song and not think that she basically just knows your life?!

I fell in love with her lyrics, her music, everything.

Going through a hard time, Just put some T Swift on and you are set. She will explain any situation you are in with her beautiful voice and lyrics and you will feel better instantly!

Trust me on this one.

 I spent an hour sitting in my car yesterday with my dear friend Cade. What did we do you may ask... We listened to Taylor.

He said that sometimes he likes to picture himself as a high school girl when he listens to her. Made my day. He is a sweet kid.

After a week of crying everyday not knowing what I am doing with my life. That is exactly what I needed. It is a new day!

Sure life sucks! A lot of the time. But if you don't have those moments of complete sadness and despair then how are you going to know if you are having a moment of complete happiness?

As the great Marilyn Monroe once said,
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."


I am waiting for the better things to fall together. I am learning so much about myself through all of this. I have started to look at life a little different. It is taking sometime. I am nowhere near as happy as I was. And I am realizing that it will take some time.


Lets be honest though.. I am not a patient person... Never have been. Never will be.
I just wish that things weren't on bad terms.. That is all.


I want to thank Tiffany Miller especially... She is my mom.. well... Kinda. She has been the one person that I can talk to through all of this and she will tell me straight up how it is. I don't know what I would have done without having her there to vent to. She is amazing and she may or may not have saved my life.
Adrienne Shelley. She is my big sister... again... Kinda.... She is just a sweetheart and would do anything for anyone. I love her to pieces as well!


This is a turning point. I just need to suck it up and breath in the fresh air. Don't sulk so much on the bad and recognize and love the good and realize I can't control everything.


This post is really all over the place. but that is okay!


If you have never heard it... Go listen to the cover of Last Kiss by boyce avenue... It may or may not be better then the original. I would post the video on here.. but alas... I am at the place of work.


"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."-Marilyn Monroe

I may or may not love her today... Just saying.


Well that is all for now kids.. I still need to post my Disney pictures... :( I promise I will remember!

Peace out girl scout.

always, Jordyn

Success

Soooo Dinny Land was a success. I am soo very grateful that I got to go! I will post pictures and more later :)

always, Jordyn

No words can explain.

how I am feeling right now. I can't even explain the hurt I am feeling right now... and to be quite honest... Yeah call me dramatic or whatever you may... But I don't think that it is ever going to fully go away. I was in love... But some people... They feel like they need to but their heads into everyone else's business. I was happy... He was the one I wanted to be with. And to all of you that read this. Yeah go make fun of me and how dramatic our relationship was... Tell us that we aren't good for each other and we don't have a good relationship... But I hope you know that you are one of the main things that tore our relationship apart. I am so very infuriated with you... But I am going to be the bigger person about this....

I love how people are your so called friends but apparently they just can't stand to see you happy cause they plant a seed.... And that seed grows and then they end up destroying something that was so fantastic. I admit to everyone and I have before that we aren't a perfect couple. Yes as a matter of a fact we do fight... But do you know what I have to say to people in relationships that don't have arguments or disagreements.... Good luck. Cause that means that you aren't being 100 percent with your partner and they aren't being the same with you.

Yeah our relationship wasn't the best... But it was real.. I feel bad for all of you that have your fake "oh we are so happy we never fight" relationships. I really do feel for you... And as much as I hate the end of all this...I really do. I would give anything to just be back in his arms and him wiping my tears away and as much pain as I am in... I feel worse for you... I honestly do...

I lost my best friend today... I hurt worse then I have ever hurt before.... But I want him to know that if he ever reads this.... You sir are the best thing that has ever happened to me... You are so amazing in so many different ways... I knew you and you knew me better then any other person on this planet.... I really wish that this wasn't the end .... There are so many more things that I want to do and experience with you... I had such high hopes for us... And I hate the feeling that I failed you... I failed this relationship... I HATE being a failure... No other single person has caused me more pain and grief and sadness and frustration and all of that then you have... But at the same time... I have never been happier or more alive then I was with you... As I have said before.. I would take all of the bad things...I wouldn't trade them in for anything... I want to be with you so bad... I just wish it could be as simple as just wanting it...I really hope you find true happiness out there... I wish you all the best... You were my everything... I will always love you...

And to all of you that are going to go gossip about this and laugh and make fun... Go right ahead!! cause you talking behind my back just means that I am two steps ahead...

and I got the point that I should leave you alone... but we both know that I am not that strong...

always, Jordyn

45 days.

and needless to say...

I am terrified...

But on the bright side:)

136 days (give or take a few depending) until happy happy day.

and 220 days until an even happier day!!

That is all.

I'll be here next week. Don't even fret. For the first time in my entire life :)


Happy friday!

always, Jordyn

Friday is my favorite day!

Friday, Friday, Friday is my favorite day.
Monday is a bummer
Tuesday's only fair
Wednesday's gettin better.
Thursday's almost thereeeeeeee

BUTTTT Friday, Friday, Friday is my favorite day!

Now come on, who doesn't remember that song from the good old JR High days. Ohhh good times.

Wanna hear a funny story... So you know the phrase TGIF..., Thank holy man above It's Friday?! Well last week I had a realization,  I finally realized why TGI Fridays is called that... Bahaha I am a smart one! Come on admit it... You just had that realization too :)

Happy friday everyone!

always, Jordyn

Sunshine!!

Today I woke up and the weirdest thing happened, I had a smile on my face. Weird. I never wake up smiling. I don't even know what I dreamed about. It could have been a horrible thing or a fantastic thing. Who really knows?!

Anyways I woke up smiling because the sun was shining through my window. I knew it was gonna be a good day from then on.

I love the sun. I can't even explained how much I have missed it! Wearing shorts, no jacket, prolly the best thing that this world has to offer.

What a different it makes with waking up with a smile on your face. It is gonna be a good day.

And chili's tonight! I miss the crady's.

Did you wake up with a smile on your face?!

happy Thursday.

always, Jordyn

Bieber Fever

So you see there is this young man. His name is Justin Bieber. He has this movie that is called Never Say Never. It is pretty much amazing. I guess you could say that I am one of those crazy girls that has Bieber Fever.

Well you see I know this adorable girl. Her name is Breelle Miller. She is the most spazmatic 6 year old you will ever meet. She is so adorable and I love her to pieces. Well you see she wanted to see the Justin Bieber movie. Her mom on the other hand... Not so much. So I volunteered to take her. Gladly I did this task. I will see that movie a thousand times. Okay, so maybe not a thousand. Ha. She was very excited.

Well I asked Christian if he would like to come with us. His response at first, no. Of course, I expected nothing different then that. Then I kept begging and said think of what everyone will say. They will say awe look how cute her boyfriend is going to see Justin Bieber with her. He then said they'll say look at how gay that kid looks... well I kept begging some more, and he gave in :) he said that he would attend this fabulous movie with Bree and I. He of course complained through the whole thing being upset that he wasn't famous. But that is okay. He still went. We have this little thing going. I always tell him to prove that he loves me. Just kiddin around. Well he did it. He proved that he truly does love me :) Thanks babe.

I think I will keep him. He is a superstar in my eyes.

always,Jordyn