Tuesday, July 19, 2011

It has happened...

I am happy. I am so content with life right now. It has only taken what, 2 months from "the incident" to get here? Ha

There is a few people I want to thank that helped me get to this point.

Nickelett Sage Hutchinson. 

She is my brown girl. I love her dearly and she will always be my best friend. We have big plans in the month of September. We are moving in together ( pray we don't kill each other:))
I aspire to be like her one day. She has her head on her shoulders and knows her values and will stick by them no matter what. She is gorgeous and I envy her.

You can see how amazing she is here!


Christian Dean Shupe

As upset with him that I may be... If that makes any sense... He saved my life that day.. If he wouldn't have rushed on over... I might not be here... Now enjoying life today! He truly is a great kid. He just needs to figure things out.

Addie Alee Wimmer

Although we aren't super tizight anymore like we used to be. Which is life.. It happens right? She is still amazing and wouldn't judge a soul. She has a bright future ahead of her and I will miss her very much in fall.

Tiffany Miller

Lets be honest... She is my second mother. Knows everything about me and still loves me:) I am so thankful for all the opportunities she gives me and the adorable children of hers that I get the fantastic opportunity I get to watch them as often as I do!

My family!

They are my biggest supporters. They want nothing but happiness for me. Especially my parents. They are amazing and I don't know what I would do without them. I love them!

and last but not least...

My new friend Colby!!

He came at just the right time in my life. He is hilarious and I am so thankful for his friendship!!

K that's all.. I hope you are all just as content with life!!

Don't take it for granted... It might all end too soon.
always, Jordyn

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I just don't get it...

Can anyone explain to me?!

When will people ever learn?

I have to watch all these people be in so much pain and go through all of this hurt.

I watch people put off life plans and their future and then complain about it later.

All for what? A half hour of fun?!

I said something that I may regret a little bit now to some people that are very close to me.. And to you I apologize.

I just hope that you are going to learn soon. I can't stand to see another person die. It took too big of a toll on me and it can't happen again.

I've cried too much. And gone through too much pain..

Promises don't really mean anything anymore..

I am glad that I still have the people that stick by me and that I can trust.  To you... I am truly grateful.

It's hard saying goodbye to people that you cared about for so long.. People that you never thought would let you done have... It is really upsetting. But I guess that is a part of life!

It's hard to watch the people that you love make all of these mistakes but.. they just have to learn. As much as it hurts for me to say good bye to them and just let them be.. maybe that is what it is going to take.

I just need help letting go! :(
It's gonna be really hard for me to trust anyone anymore... 
always, Jordyn